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| Saturday, August 7th, 2004 | | 9:36 pm |
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| Tuesday, April 27th, 2004 | | 10:46 pm |
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| Saturday, April 24th, 2004 | | 5:54 pm |
[Dolla, Dolla Bill] FUCK. Current Mood:  amusedCurrent Music: --Chingy-"Jackpot"-- |
| Sunday, April 18th, 2004 | | 6:42 pm |
[Intense, But As Simple As Lovely] This weekend at the most part was very intense. Overall I have so much mized feelings about eveything that has happened. Not concerning my love-life with Matt, thank god. :) I love you... and forever and always I will... Not matter what. Anyways, Hmm, I think I made an entry on friday which was very interesting night indeed. Wow, friday rocked girls!!! *Karol, Zee and Ruta* Don't worry, this upcoming friday will also rock.In the newz though, Saturday morning I found out from Heather Morman, that Mr. Paul Shagoian had died from a heart attack on friday night, which was so shocking that he's gone, already as young as he was. Wow, Greg, I'm really sorry and I hope that you get over this someday, just know that your father is in good hands and he deserves to be in good hands because he was an awesome Jazz Teacher and an awesome father to ya. *Hug* I hope ya feel better. :( Yeah, I felt so bad for The Shagoian's I hope they get through and get closer than they were. Everything happens for a reason, for what reason we don't know good or bad, we have to take it as it's given to us. That's basically the down of my weekend. Saturday was pretty cool, well not the bad newz, but I mean I went to LAX to pickup my cousins from MI. which was awesome cause' they came and we all got to chill all of em' were outside and I think they went to dinner @ like 12 am. I decided to stay home and chat on the phone and use up my free nights and weekends with Matt. Wow, we talked about how we really know eahcother and what we would do in certain situations which was funny cause' he got all of mine right, I got his right too, but I think I was a lil'off on that hispanic dude thing. lol. But hey I still know ya like you know me. :) So it was cool, cause' we stayed on the phone and talked about everything we could possibly talk about in the 4 1/2 hours on the phone with him. Wow, yes a lot but I don't beat Foxy RoXy on that with her ShAwN... lol go gurl w00t w00t! ahaha. Luv Ya RoXy.That was basically the summaries of the weekends and tonight, I'm just going to chill @ home cause' i was left by everyone else. And fuckin' here to stay with my dog and chill @ home and prolly catch up on a lot of HoMeWoRk. I watched the Laker Game and that was very SLOPPY. wow 72-71 Game # 1 goes to Kobe and the Lakers Hell yeah. Winning is Winning. "Inch or a mile." That's bout' it I'm porabaly going ot eat and watch TV. later tonight and I'm not going to miss the Simpsons and of course I'llporabaly online cause of all this boredum and the whole family is out with my cousins touring LA. I'm too lazy anyways... Yep. Hit me up: 323.496.1483 and that is all... Peace.L0UvR3',
*-k-de-*R.I.P- Paul Shagoian--April 16th, 2004'--- Current Mood:  bouncyCurrent Music: .: $Chingy$:.- Juice |
| Friday, April 16th, 2004 | | 10:24 pm |
See Also:[Boredum @ school. Fun @ the mall.] School was boring was ever, well not only cause' Matt wasn't there and there wan't anyone to chill with, it was pretty boring like simple and white no excitement or nothing to talk about with noone. Luckily after 2nd period I talked and chitter chattered with Vannessa and Karol, yep it was pretty funny in class and all of that stuff it was cool. Karol was comig to the BC. after drama practice which was like @t 7 pm. The plan was Zee was going to come with her but instead she got so bored that she called me up and called Karol up that she was going to just meet me up @ the BC. by herself and that we would go shoppin'. and meet Karol and Her friend Ruta later on. Afterschool, Moo-moo and Nadia went with me to the BC. andall that stuff. We got a ride from Moo's bro toots, he's cool. Thanks for your compliments. <3! Well yeah, we spent time @ forever 21 buying a lot of shit, and all of that stuff. After an hour Moo had to leave cause her mom was strict about all that crap. Stupid Nazi mother. Hehe, but she bout' a lot of jewelry so it's gonna be cool when she wears it on monday. After Moo left, Nadia and I went to the coffee place *Starbucks* and bought some coffee. We chatted a lil' bit more about the subject on journalism class and how people gained respect in a matter of one day. Where work actually counts as the quality of someones exact personality. At about 5:40 pm. or something like that she had to leave and stuff like that, her parents were cool about it and I walked her to Beverly well atleast half way then I went back to Cedar's to wait for Karol, Zee and Ruta. Zee finally called me and said that she was coming and finally she did we met up @ San Vicente and all of that, it was cool cause she changed into the color green. W00t W00t! Yeah Green Y0! So she came and we went to the mall once again, first we went up to up against the wall, where we were going to buy a skirt that costed $29.17 and fuckin' shit, we were both short a dollar, it sucked so we just bought it next time. It was embarassing but cOo. After that we went down to Wet Seal and I found these cute Capri's and they were like $4.50 it was so awesome, It's bit seethrough but seriously hot pants will go with it. The next time I go to fuckin' up against the fuckin' wall, I'm gonna buy that fuckin' skirt with every single penny I have I want that outfit so bad. It has these Jamaican Colors, it sooo cute. Anyways, We finally met up with Karol, but before we did, people were fighting outside "2-guys" and One was Flip and one was hispanic, it was so freaky cause' at first I was like "Oh look the asian on is getting beat up," But then I noticed that was my cousin!!!! LOL, he told me that he had some shit to settle @ BC. so it was soooo weird. Cause, that's prolly the shit he had to settle. Wow, I called him up on the cell after the whole thing and he was pissed... "Fuck that fuck that, call me later, shit I'm bout' to fuck with bitch..." It was soo funny. Yeah We told Karola ll about it and Ruta too, they were both surprised. After all of that, we went to go eat @ the food court and we had lots of laughs and all of that it was really fun. "RadioAcTiVe" ahahahahahahahaha... "Girl you wanna come to my hotel?" and uh.... "MMMM.. girl you perty,"----> "MMMMM... boy you durty....." lol ahaha, fun timez yall fun timez. LoVe lOvE LoVe. it was sooo much fun today. I missed Matt and BiK... But it was a lot of fun with Karol and Ms. Zee and of course RuTa. Love yall, we should go again next week. This time @ the grove or soemthing like that. Aahaha.... That's all that happened, and right now I'ma call BiK or prolly Matt... Peace. L0UvR3',
*-k-de-* Current Mood:  flirtyCurrent Music: .:Usher- BURN:. |
| Sunday, April 11th, 2004 | | 3:35 pm |
[Spring Break Is Already Over. It's Not Enough.] Spring Break is over. Fuck. Damn it. I hate this. I'll leave you guys with a quiz or two, cause' seriously I made an entry an it just got completely deleted. Damn that. Well it's time for school again. More Drama. More Trauma. and not enough Rest. More of all that gossip of other people saying they know you whne they don't even know the color of your hair. Seriously, The break was some break, I believe that shit wasn't enough. Either that, or it was really fucking boring. OR, maybe it's just me. Again. I can't believe it's already over and the fun was just begining. Well not exactly, but I just want some more fuckin' sleep. This shit is too much. There's school tomorrow and that means 1st period and actually studying and shit like that, damn. I might fill out a survey to cover this whole entry cause' I'm pretty lazy to fuckin' do anything these days. In reality, meaning newz; nothing has been up lately. The friday before spring break I went tot he mall with karol and ya'll heard bout' that it was fun. And this friday we went again... It was pretty fun we saw that dude from the O.C. and that was pretty CoO. And on saturday I went shoppin' once again, this time with my auntie. I bought a coule of girls things here and there (all the clothes,jewelry, and cosmetics). Today, I just watched the Laker game that sucked so much ass. Kobe didn't make points for crap, that was like an All-Time low-score thing. Fuck. I don't think they're going to win this season.That's bout' it and later on maybe a lil' round' 3:30 pm. I'm probably going to head to my cousins house to re-color my hair to deep oriental black permanent shit. Crazy, but my is going ot black forever. Hm, as for spring break recap, overall I think it was pretty "OK". It was some break, not as exciting not as simple. Hm, the super minus to this break was that both my best friends are on restriction during spring break, that really sucks. I don't know, I haven't talked to BiK in more than a week or so and Matt, I haven't talked to him since friday it just feels all empty. Yeah, That was the minus for the break. And as for the Big plus it was basically prolly gettin a lot of new stuff. That was it, I mean I have nothingmore to say. The cell-phone bill this month is about $521.41 and I don't know that shit is BIG! My mom didn't kill em cause I put a $40.00 credit on that shit. That was that and this is this... Peace. *MiSs-PiNk-k-De* *(((3.2.3.4.9.6.1.4.8.3.))) They don't love you like i love you. Current Mood:  cynicalCurrent Music: --Yeah Yeah Yeahs-- |
| Saturday, April 10th, 2004 | | 11:48 pm |
[ I really need to develop those pictures.] I really need to develop those new photos. Angie said she might drop by and develop em' real soon but on the real I need those pics so I cen put em' up on Live-Journal. Fuck. This weekend was so cool. Not that cool, cause I didn't even talk to Matt this whole weekend cause' I couldn't go online and he couldn't chat-up on the phone cause he was punishment. So, yeah I take back the cool thing, it sorta sucked, when you think about your probs. Wahh, I got 1 Fail in Algebra, Fuck Ch0's Class. Hm, I also got a fuckin' D in O'hare's Bitch History class. I could really do better.... but I'm so lazy. Well, yeah that's that for grades and shit, I saw lotsa kids @ the mall. So on friday, I went out with Karol to the Beverly Center I was suppose to kick it with Jeremy from Venice,m bt I couldn't it was way too late for me to head to Venice @ 5. Sorry Kid. Instead we hung out and shopped here and there and walked around til' our feet started hurting like shit. Karol wanted to leave and go home to wait for her lovers call sisco. Funny love. Anyways, I was gettin' bored and fuckin' I dunno, I just needed to chill. I called up Angie and she couldn't either cause she was at CoNt' ScHoO. Fuck that. I didn't know what I was gonna do, cause I can't get a fuckin' ride home. It was either that or chill with my motha'. I talked so much on the fuckin' phone. The bill was like $851.40 this month, fuck I'm so screwed. lol, well subtract $338.98 from there, cause' we still haven't paid last month's bill. Shit, that shit is fuckin' GAAAAAAAAAY. My mom, is gonna be so fuckin' pissed. But whatever, I hope I still get to keep my phone. Yeah... fuck. Well, shit, today or should I say yesterday was also a bit cOo.I just went shoppin', and bought some groceries with my mother, and all that mother daughter crappage, but yeah, that's all, Hit me up... x0x0 MaTt *I luuuu yOo!* XoXoPeAcE.... *-k-De-* Current Mood:  bitchyCurrent Music: .:Mad TV. *Theme*:. |
| Friday, April 9th, 2004 | | 11:07 am |
[And Another...] *Name:K-de *Commonly called:K-deisha/Pink/Pink Pornstar *Age:16 *Location:Los Angeles *Single or not?:Single, but my heart is taken by matt (best friends!) *Sign: Aqua-rious *Music: Hip/Hop, R&b, Rap,Some Rock (=w=) *Favorite Band/Solo Artist:hm... Outkast, Kanye West, Ludacris, Neptunes *N.E.R.D.* *Favorite Movie: Fight Club *Favorite Actor/Actress:Brad Pitt, Edward Norton, Johnny Depp *Favorite Color:Pink *Favorite Animal: koala *Best Friend(s):Matt,Vernon,April,Angie,Karol & Zee *Worst Enemy:Eh, I could go on... *Jeremy (skinny /tall dude) *Favorite Name: Nikki *Favorite School Subject: None FUCKEROOS! *Favorite Author: Chuck Palahnuik *Favorite Book: Choke *One Word That Describes You: Different. *How Others Would Describe You In One Word:Simple *Current Time:11:00 am. *What's your worst fear:to have my heart broken *What's the one thing in life that's most important to you:Cell *Have you ever felt alone:Nah *Have you ever felt overwhelmingly loved:Nah *Have you felt like the world is going to end: Nah *Have you been so happy that you had to scream for joy:sure?! [Last days of schools] *What's the most traumatic event that's happened to you: hmmm...? *Have you ever cried in front of someone, and felt ashamed of it: No, but over the phone. *Have you ever acted troubled, just to get attention:Nah *Have you ever lied to someone and it hurt you more than it could ever hurt them:Yea *Have you told someone you loved them, but didn't mean it: Eh' *Do you have a secret that you'd rather die over than admit: Nah *Are you ever paranoid: Nah *Have you cried over happiness: Nah *Who do you love the most: Matt and Vernon *Have you ever wanted to be totally and utterly alone: Sometimes *Ever broke any bones: Yep *Has a friend betrayed you, but you ignore it because you know deep inside they didn't mean it: Yes *Matt* *Do you privately think thoughts you'd never share: uhuh *Have you ever wished you were someone else:yes *Do you believe in God--If not, what's your belief: Eh' *Do you prefer to be awake or asleep: SLEEP IS GOOD. *Do you enjoy nightmares, dreams, or daydreams the most: DREAMS *Are you ever entranced by the moon, sun, or stars:MOON and STARS *Do you believe in love at first sight: yea *Have you been in love:Yeah, Matt *Do you believe in psychics: nope *Do you believe in horoscopes: eh' *Are you overall happy with life: Yea, could be better. *If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be: My tEmper *If you could change one thing about the world, what would it be: Stuff *If you could relive one single moment from your whole life, when would it be: I dunno, prolly childhood (eat, sleep, poop) Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: .:0utKaSt:. |
| 12:49 am |
[I'm so bored.I could fill this out...] H A V E Y O U E V E R 1. Kissed your best buddy: Yeah... (Matt) 2. Ran away:Last Year, Ninth Grade, wow, I had to sleep with carlos near the Van Ness Sk8 place, crazy,but seriously the floors are cold, now I know why bums use boxes. 3. Pictured your crush naked:Nah... never. 4. Actually seen your crush naked: Nah, I actually wish. 5. Broken someone's heart:hmmm.. ask em' 7. Been in love: hm, mehby. 8. Cried when someone died:Of course. 9. Wanted someone you knew you couldn't have: You just don't know.. 10. Broken a bone:hm, yeah my pinky and my collar bone (sk8tin) 11. Drank alcohol: DrUnk On CrUnk *PaRtY* 12. Lied:NoOoO... I'm lying right now. W H I C H I S B E T T E R 13. COKE OR PEPSI: Coke Yo! 15. GIRLS OR GUYS:GuYs! ALL THE WAY! *once you go black you never go back.* 16. FLOWERS OR CANDY: CaNdY. 17. SCRUFF OR CLEAN SHAVEN: being hairy just doesn't work. 18. QUIET OR LOUD: Loud. (soundaholics) 19. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES: hmmm... I really don't care. 20. BITCHY OR SLUTTY: No clue, it depends on the guys. 21. TALL OR SHORT: Tall 22. PANTS OR SHORTS: Pants W I T H T H E O P P O S I T E S E X 23. WHAT DO YOU NOTICE FIRST:Everything. 24. LAST PERSON YOU SLOW DANCED WITH: hm...Marino 25. WORST QUESTION TO ASK: Are you a Pornstar??? T H E L A S T T I M E 26. SHOWERED: Today 12:11 am. 27. HOOKED UP: Like weeks ago. 28. HAD A GREAT TIME WITH THE OPPOSITE SEX: Tuesday. (Matt) W H A T I S 29. YOUR GOOD LUCK CHARM: Hm.. wanna give me one? 30. PERSON YOU HATE MOST: I could go onn and on but hey it's Jeremy,(skinny one) I hate you. I really do. no really I do. 31. THE BEST THING THAT HAS HAPPENED TO YOU TODAY: hm, i cleaned part of my room. F A V O R I T E S 32. COLOR: Pink 33. MOVIE: Fight Club,Frailty, Kill Bill,Se7en, etc. 34. BOOK: Fight Club, LULLABY, SURVIVOR, CHOKE, and on... 36. JUICE: O-Jay (OrAnGe) Yo! 37. CAR: S2000 04' 38. ICE CREAM: Mint And Chip 39. HOLIDAY: 4-20. its the only holiday that doesn't belong to everyone (even it is my sis's b-day) 40. SEASON:Summer. (fun in the hotdamn sun) 41. BREAKFAST FOOD: Baco' egg cheesum' biscuit. B E S T 43. COLOGNE:Axe on guys. 44. PERFUME: Pink by.GAP. 45. KISS:Matt, near the cedars hospital "HOT" 46. ROMANTIC MEMORY: hm, many with matt.... lets keep that on the D-L. 47. MOST RECENT ADVICE GIVEN TO YOU: hm, go for it! H A V E Y O U 48. Fallen for your best friend?: Yeah.. still fallin' 49. Kissed JUST a friend? Yeah 50. Been rejected?:No, never put my self in something like that. 51. Been in love?:Never, maybe right now. 52. Been in lust?: Only when I'm DrUnK or HiGH 53: Used someone?: No never. 54. Been used?: Maybe... wouldn't know. 55. Cheated on someone?: No, don't thinks so. 56. Been cheated on?:Yeah by colin g. 57. Been kissed?:Yeah, lotsa' 58. Done something you regret?: Yeah, last year rejecting the guy i'm fallin for who is now my best buddy. W H O W A S T H E L A S T P E R S O N 59. You touched?: My sister, after slappin her across her face. 60. You talked to?:Karol. 61. You hugged?:Uncle Joe 62. You instant messaged?: Matt 63. You kissed?: Matt 64. You had sex with?: not yet. 65. You yelled at?:Dad 66. You laughed with?: Angie 67. Who broke your heart?: Allen 68. Who told you they loved you?: Matt D O Y O U 69. Color your hair? No. 70. Have tattoos? No. 71. Have piercings? 2, one on each ear 72. Have a boyfriend? Not at the moment, tough story. 73. Own a webcam? Nope. 74. Own a thong? Yeah, all my undies are thongs. 75. Ever get off the damn computer? Yeah H A V E Y O U / D O Y O U / A R E Y O U 79. Stolen anything? hm, like lipgloss samples and crap 80. Smoke? Most of the time. 81. Schizophrenic? no 82. Obsessive? nah 83. Compulsive? no 84. Obsessive compulsive? ....no 85. Panic? hm, at times 86. Anxious? all the time 87. Depressed? nah 88. Suicidal? BoO! suicide is stupid. 89. Obsessed with hate? nah 90. Dream of mutilated bodies, blood, death, and gore? nah 91. Dream of doing those things instead of just seeing them? no 92. If you could be anywhere, where would you be?: Miami 93. Can you do anything freakish with your body?: nah. 94. What facial feature do you find the most attractive on others? bad acne= no no no. 95. Would you vote for a woman candidate for president?:Nah, it's wwhat they fuckin' do. 96. Would you marry for money? nah, very wrong-yo! 97. Have you had braces? Yea in like 7th grade for like 4 mos. 98. Do you like hairy backs?: No excuse to being hairy. 99. When was the last time you gave head?: Never. 100. Could you live without a computer?: hm... maybe not. 101. Do you use ICQ, AOL Buddy list etc.?: uh... 102. If so, how many people are on your list(s)?: 200 103. If you could live in any past, where would it be? The 70's 104. Do you wear shoes in the house or take them off?: off. 105. What is your favorite fruit?:peaches 106. Do you eat wheat bread or white?: whatever... 107. What is your favorite place to visit?:Vegas 108. What is the last movie you saw?: Twisted 109. Do you kiss on the first date?: never been on a date 110. Are you photogenic?: nope. 111. Do you dream in color or black and white?: color 112. Are you wearing fingernail polish?: yeah 113. Is it chipped or fresh?: fresh 114. Do you have any dimples?: small one. 115. Do you remember being born?: no. 116. Why do you take surveys?: bored. 117. Do you drink alcohol?: DrUnk On CrUnK. 118. Did you like or do you like high school?: School only sucks cause of the people that go to it. 119. What is the best accent?: Creole' 120. Who do you want to kiss?: Matt R. 121. Do you like sunrises or sunsets the most?: sunrise 122. Do you want to live to be 100?:no kill me when i'm 50 123. Is a flat stomach important to you?:nah. 124. Do you or have you played with a ouija board?: yeah 125. Are you loyal?: if you are my true friend, yes. 126. Are you tolerant of other peoples beliefs?: yea 127. When you watch movies at home, do you like the lights on or off?: Off 128. Do you have frequent nightmares: No 129. Do you like your nose?: i liked it better before i fractured it in the pool party 131. At what age did you find out that Santa Claus wasnt real? 4 yrs. 132. How many pairs of shoes do have in your closet? like 5 133. Do you like to wear the same shoes everyday or do you like a variety?: nah, lotsa slippers. 134. Do you write poetry?: no 135. Do you snore?: hate it' 136. Do you sleep more on your back, front, or sides?: curling works. 137. Dog/Cat?:d0gs! 138. Do you lick stamps?: yea 139. Do you use an electric can opener?: no 140. Have you ridden in a hot air balloon?: No 141. Which hurts the most, physical or emotional pain?: undecided. 142. Favorite TV show?: Simpsons, that 70's show,family guy... 143. Do you know anyone who is clinically depressed?: yeah 144. Do you prefer a piano or a violin?: piano 145. Are you a sex addict? MAYBE IF I GOT SOME, I WOULD BE. 146. Do you know someone who has cancer?: yeah 147. Do you like to argue?: yes. but not in a state of anger. 148. Do you hunt?: no 149. Do you like fast food joints, or expensive restaurants?: both 150. Would you rather visit a zoo or an art museum?: art yo! 151. Do you have a middle name? Yup 152. Are you basically a happy person?: i try 153. Are you tired?: yes 154. Did you drink anything with caffeine in it today?: yeah 155. Have you ever met anyone off the internet? yup 156. How many phones do you have in your house?: 3 157. How long is your hair?: it touches my boobs 158. Do you get along with your parents?: lately i have 159. What color of eyes do you prefer?: anything T H E L A S T T I M E I 221. Smiled?: dont know 222. Laughed? dont remember 223. Cried?: hm, ask matt 224. Bought something?: this weekend. 225. Danced?: dont know 226. Were sarcastic?: i am always sarcastic. 227. Kissed someone?: ask matt 228. Talked to an ex?: ask matt 230. Do you own any plaid clothing?: 231. Do you own Converse shoes?: yeah 232. Do you own Saucony shoes?: no 233. Do you own old school Nikes?: no 234. Do you wear tight pants?: yes 235. Is there more than one zipper in your pants?: no I N T H E L A S T D A Y H A V E Y O U 236. Worn a skirt: no 237. Been mean: no 238. Been sarcastic: no 239. Met someone new: no 240. Missed someone: i miss someone everyday. 241. Hugged someone: eh 242. Fought with your parents: No 243. Wished upon a star: never have 244. Laughed until you cried: not in the last day 245. Played Truth or Dare: no 246. Watched a sunrise/sunset: no 247. Went to the beach at night: no 248. Spent quality time alone: i never spend "quality" time. 249. Read a book for fun: no 250. Are you lonely: yeah 251. Are you wearing your pajamas?: no 252. Are you talking to someone online: no 255. Boxers or Briefs: WEAR BOXERS. GUYS. Current Mood: boredCurrent Music: .:J-Kwon- Tipsy *ReMiX*:. |
| Thursday, April 8th, 2004 | | 7:11 pm |
[See Also: Power corrupts. And absolute power corrupts absolutely.] Wow. is the first word that comes to mind as I speak about SpRiNg BrEaK yO! It's been so great!!! well not really well atleast the past few days were for example tuesday, that was fun/tiring cause I had a major headache. On tuesday, the plan was to "chill" with Diana, Big -V, and Matt; I did, we did. At first it was OK. I met up with Big-V at the Giant Dollar store on Elmwood cause' he took that bus on Western. We met up there and he said that Matt wasn't with him and that he was suppose to meet Matt but he wasn't there or something like that, so we just stood near the bus stop on Maplewood to wait for his ass. Then we were looking for him not knowing that we were across the street from eachother. Then we all started walking to Diana's House, we saw her and we walked like a block back to meet up with her and her lil' bro. Diana and I went to her house to check out with her grandpa who wouldn't let her go unless she was with another chick. Then we left to go chill, she wanted to go to my house to kick it with Vernon in the room, it was like that two for two thing. Pretty cool eh? Yeah, it was I guess they had fun right Big-V? ahaha. We "chilled" @t my place for like more than 1 hr. or so, Matt and I had FuN fUn FuNzO. And, I hope Diana also had fun with BiG-V! Yeah that was cool, sorry if it SUCKED for you Matt cause I really was not in the MoOd. I told you I had a headache cause I didn't get enough sleep, 2 hrs. is obviously not enough babe. But I still LoVe Ya! muah* muah* Xo xO* That's all that happened on tues. Well most of that day, I went back to my cousins house, and Angie and I chilled for a while then she went to go pick-up Ape and we went to charlie's, But I told them to drop me off cause I really wasn't feelin' that day. Well, maybe next time. Yeah, it was weird cause I passed up on Sm0kiN' jOe. It was all gOod. I slept over Angie's house and swam with my little cousins' CuTiES!.Today, I just sat there at my cousin's place til' my mom picked me and we went shopping at the grove for some new spring clothing and dinner @ maggiano's again. It was a Mother/Daughter day. It was coO.Tomorrow, I'm probably, going to chill with Karol and Zee, @t the mall, but this time they got FoOd. Were probably going to Go ShOppiN'... @t the grove and find some DuDes, not for me but for ZeE ans KaRoL. ~mUcH Luv ChIcAs!~ I'll probably hit her up on the cellie later tonight, I can't chill with Big-V and Matt cause' fuckin they're both on PuNiShMeNt. Really STUPID. Nazi parents nowadays. That's all Yo. Hit me up if you want to chill! LoVe- MiSs PiNk K-De~[ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<img [...] <br>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] Wow. is the first word that comes to mind as I speak about <b>SpRiNg BrEaK yO!</b> It's been so great!!! well not really well atleast the past few days were for example tuesday, that was fun/tiring cause I had a major headache. On tuesday, the plan was to "chill" with Diana, Big -V, and Matt; I did, we did. At first it was OK. I met up with Big-V at the Giant Dollar store on Elmwood cause' he took that bus on Western. We met up there and he said that Matt wasn't with him and that he was suppose to meet Matt but he wasn't there or something like that, so we just stood near the bus stop on Maplewood to wait for his ass. Then we were looking for him not knowing that we were across the street from eachother. Then we all started walking to Diana's House, we saw her and we walked like a block back to meet up with her and her lil' bro. Diana and I went to her house to check out with her grandpa who wouldn't let her go unless she was with another chick. Then we left to go chill, she wanted to go to my house to kick it with Vernon in the room, it was like that two for two thing. Pretty cool eh? Yeah, it was I guess they had fun right Big-V? ahaha. We<b> "chilled"</b> @t my place for like more than 1 hr. or so, Matt and I had <b>FuN fUn FuNzO.</b> And, I hope Diana also had fun with BiG-V! Yeah that was cool, sorry if it <b>SUCKED</b> for you Matt cause I really was not in the MoOd. I told you I had a headache cause I didn't get enough sleep, 2 hrs. is obviously not enough babe. But I still<b> LoVe Ya! muah* muah* Xo xO*</b> That's all that happened on tues. Well most of that day, I went back to my cousins house, and Angie and I chilled for a while then she went to go pick-up Ape and we went to charlie's, But I told them to drop me off cause I really wasn't feelin' that day. Well, maybe next time. Yeah, it was weird cause I passed up on <b>Sm0kiN' jOe. </b> It was all gOod. I slept over Angie's house and swam with my little cousins' <b>CuTiES!.</b> Today, I just sat there at my cousin's place til' my mom picked me and we went shopping at the grove for some new spring clothing and dinner<b>@ </b>maggiano's again. It was a Mother/Daughter day. It was <b>coO.</b>Tomorrow, I'm probably, going to chill with Karol and Zee, @t the mall, but this time they got <b>FoOd.</b> Were probably going to Go ShOppiN'... <b>@</b>t the grove and find some <b>DuDes, </b>not for me but for ZeE ans KaRoL. ~mUcH Luv ChIcAs!~ I'll probably hit her up on the cellie later tonight, I can't chill with Big-V and Matt cause' fuckin they're both on PuNiShMeNt. Really <b>STUPID.</b> Nazi parents nowadays. That's all Yo. Hit me up if you want to chill!<b> LoVe- MiSs PiNk K-De~</b> <center><img src="http://k.endopure.org/pharrellwhee.jpg"<br> <b>Pharrell Is So SexY.</b> <b>L0UvR3', *-k-de-*</b>  contentCurrent Music: .:$cHinGy$- Gettin' It:. |
| Monday, April 5th, 2004 | | 2:19 pm |
[See Also: My N*E*R*D* Here's my autographed Album cover by N.E.R.D. (Thanks Chad,Pharrell, and Shae)[ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<img [...] <br>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <center><b> Here's my autographed Album cover by N.E.R.D. (Thanks Chad,Pharrell, and Shae)</b><center><img src="http://img9.photobucket.com/albums/v24/Paperclipsgirl/AutographedNERD.gif"<br> <center><b>Here's my Autographed Pharrell Photo (Thanks BoO-bOo!) </b><center><img src="http://img9.photobucket.com/albums/v24/Paperclipsgirl/autographedpharrell.gif"<br> |
| 1:13 pm |
[How your past goes with you into everyday of your future.] It's been boring today, Matt called me and woke me up cause' it was like 12:00 pm. something like that, I was still so very sleepy from watching three movies last night, they were funny and scary.I'm probably just going to chill at home, cause I can't go anywhere today since my mom already left and my dad is going to be home most of the time, cause it is his day off work. He said he was going to West Hollywood with my Uncle to find out more info on their little case. But that's him, I hope he'll be back home later cause seriously when he's home it's really boring and I can't even be on the phone cause he'll suspect something. I guess hiding behind something isn't really as bad. But maybe it's just me. Again. Last night, was OK. I did everything I said I was going to do on L-J. Haha. I went over to my cuz's houses and the little get togethers they had, fun fun funZO. We also went to dinner @ the grove and got back home at like 11:30 pm. And there were like so many messages!!! ARGH! too many like 8 messages, so I sat there a listened to it, 2 of em' were matt's, and 4 of them were my lil' sis and my cuz, and 2 of em' was my mom lookin' for me when she got lost @ the grove cause everyone left her inside Barnes and Nobles. I guess she forgot that I had left my phone at home. After getting home, I sat on my bed, and I finally went to sleep. FINALLY! then my dearest cousins from hell came and woke me the fuck up. Yes, they wantedto watcha movies, so they drove me all the way to Blockbuster and we reanetd out about 5 movies, Texas Chainsaw Massacre, Scary Movie, Scary Movie 2, Gothika, and Daddy Day Care. It was fun watching all the movies and going to sleep at like 4 in the morning and waking up and 12 pm. with your stomach hurting. Haha, all of em' are probably still sleeping they all went home at like 6 am. when my mom left for work to drop em' off first. That must suck getting 2 hrs. of sleep. But whateva. Today, I'm not going anywhere, my stomach hurts and I'm proabably just going to chill at home even if it is Spring Break. Fuck. That. Shit. Cause' seriously, damn I hate it when I'm sick and I go places it's just better to stay at home and get healthy than to go out and get even more sick. I'm probably going to call Karol and Zee and cancel with them going out to the mall, cause I obviously cannot. That's it, call if ya wanna chat, I'm probably going to do some survey's this afternoon cause it's all boring and crap. L0UvR3',
*-k-de-* Current Mood: bouncyCurrent Music: Ludacris: Stand-up |
| Sunday, April 4th, 2004 | | 7:58 pm |
[See Also: Sticks and stones may break your bones, but words will never hurt you.] It's been a pretty tough week,well actually it's been kind of great since spring break has started off, I mean everything is relieving now cause theres not too much of that drama around me anymore. Finally, a relief. The first day of spring break was quite alright, ha ha, it's not even actually the first day til' tomorrow. But overall, it's been good. Today, I went to St. Brenden's church to celebrate "Palm Sunday" It was pretty funny cause the priest was like"Would you like to carry a palm?" and I was like "NO!!!" and my mom pushed me like super hard and I almost landed on the floor. So I was like " Uh, I mean YES!!!" It was really funny, maybe one of those moment things. Haha. Afterwards, we went to Denny's to have some sort of family gathering with our cousins and family, we were all loud and chattin while we ate breakfast, It was fun cause Angie and Ape ordered 5 milkshakes for breakfast and was claiming they were on a diet. I ordered a Grand Slam, with scrambled eggs and 2 pancakes. YuMmY! After that we went to cousins marc's house to swim and play some games, it was fun then we went home and I think Matt called me up and we talked for a lil' bit while I was watching the Houston Rockets and Sacramento game on ABC 7 and afterwards I think he had to leave for something. I think it was the car show he wanted me to go to cause he said I was pretty and I might get discovered to be on magazine covers... HAHA WHATEVA! lol, thanks thought buddy I heart u Matt Rochelle. I fell asleep during the Laker game, they lost like 95- 89 or something SUCKS. BoO! Anywho, after falling asleep cuz Ape called me up to go shopping with her and check out the new target on La Brea and we went over there and I bought a couple of shirts and all that other stuffs like food and JuNk. I think tonight since were celebrating my fathers anniversary were going to go to Maggiano's Little Italy Restaurant and were probably going to eat dinner there and I'm probably going to end up shopping at the grove once again at Forever 21 or XXI ehehe. Fun Fun. My cellphone don't call it atleast not until I get home cause' I think I left it, hopefully at home cause I know it isn't in the purse I used today. Meh. I think that's all for today, Tomorrow I'm probably going over to Angie's or Karol's house to swim and spend time with my other cuz's coming in from MI. W00t! W00t! And tuesday matt is probably going ot come over and were probably going to end up going someplace or sonething like that, atleast. As for Livejournal public entries, that is a dead comment. FRIENDS ONLY! FRIENDS ONLY! FRIENDS ONLY! (an exception: tot hose I loathe and that loathe me, due to the fact of free speech and as well as fuckin with you all because you all fuck with me, you know who you are, bitches. fuckers and jeremy, (The skinny hispanic tall fucker.)) Thanks Ya'll. Enjoy my friends only tix. Hit me if you want to chill:323.496.1483...L0UvR3',
-*MiSs PiNk k-De*- Current Mood: boredCurrent Music: N.E.R.D.-Backseat Love |
| 12:17 am |
[These distraction-oholics. These focus-ophobics.] Spring motha'fuckin' Break!!! Hell yeah, I finally get to sleep in as much I would like to this whole week. Too bad for my bitch-ass sister that she has tracks what a loser. Anyways, Damn finally school is over for atleats one week. No more of that stupid drama and shit, fuck, I hate people that put in too much drama. Damn, get your own goddamn lives fuckers. Hate y'all. Shit. What the fuck? Jeremy, You are a fucker. I hate you. I really really do. Do you have nothing else better to do but to fuckin' wish that I did all that shit to you , that you said I did damn you can wish, but fuckin' lying that it is true, HELL NAH. That's a bitch made ass motherfuckin' lie and both you and I know it. I tried not to fuckin' let it get to me, but you've kinda went to far that even I start caring caue you know what? your fuckin' with me way too much. I'd rather you hate than for you to fuckin' feel sorry for me, so please just leave the fuck alone, I ask this in favor, but also to fuckin' REALLY LEAVE ME THE FUCK ALONE. I hate you, you hate me, hey were all happy!?!? Right? cause' damn, you even have the guts to say "hi" and pretend that yo ass don't talk shit behind my back, seriously damn WTF? Damn, I kinda wish I was you cause you a numba' 1 lying ass mothafuckin' hater, shit you deserve a fuckin' oscar or something cause that shit is bomb, you can make people believe all that shit. You are the best liar. Shit. Deserve an oscar for all that actin' and shit. Anyways... Damn. Lats night was pretty tight, cause Zena and Karol met me up at the B.C. that shit was pretty boring cause noone was at the mall. April was suppose to go but fuckin' her ass left my ass in LA. and went off to Vegas. Shit, I'ma leave her ass too On May 7th. I'ma go to Vegas and her ass is gonna be here in fuckin' LA. doin nothing but Blowing her ass off with MaRyjAnE. I went shopping with Karol and Zena, then we ate @t the food court and saw a bunch of kids from Fax. That' shit was weird cause we saw Manuel's mom and my mom had told her that I go to fax and she said her son did too, and she showed me a picture of Manuel when he was like 11 or 12 or something he looked FuNnY. But his mom was cool. Then, my mom called my cellphone and she said that she was leaving work early cause Aunt Cora had a party in Covina and we had to go there and eat with them at Woodranch Restaurant. It was that good. The food was all spicy and shit. We came home at like 11:00 or somethin' I was tired like fuck so I just fell asleep on my bed and then The phone rang loud as heck fuckin' hokey pokey song was super loud. I woke my ass up and I was like "hello?" and it was BiK.That shit was weird he called like fuckin' 12 it was cool though I talked on the phone for like 5 mins with Matt and BiK. After that they let me go cause I think they knew I was tired. But whatever. This mornin' my mom woke my ass up and fuckin' made me do the laundry and clean and today we have to go to Cousin Vanessa's Party and Full-hOuse on China town, hehehe, were gonna eat out cHiNa-sTyLe. Yep, more chow mein and SeAfOoD. I hate FiSh tHough. That shit is NaStY-aSs-ShiT. Angie, and Tracy are gonna be there. Fuck it. I'm out. Hit me up. *3.2.3.4.9.6.1.4.8.3.* - MiSs PiNk k-De-
L0UvR3',
*-k-de-* Current Mood: excitedCurrent Music: .:Sorry Ms. Jackson- Outkast:. |
| Sunday, March 28th, 2004 | | 12:45 pm |
[And the Survey Says...] ~10 bands you've been listening to a lot lately: 1) Neptunes/N.E.R.D. 2) Yeah Yeah Yeahs 3)Jay-Z 4)Outkast 5) P.Diddy 6) =w= 7) WSC 8) J-kwon 9) 50 cent 10)Aaliyah ~09 things you're looking forward to: 1) Turning 18 2)Car (S2000) 3) Graduating Highschool 4) Skate 5) My birthday 6) My cousin's B-day 7) Ruining Tyrie's Life 8) Developing Pictures 9)A call from the woman @t Pinkhouse Enterntainment. ~08 things you like to wear: 1)Tanks 2)black pants 3) jeans 4) Chinese Slippers 5) Thongs 6) Pink Shirts 7) Nets 8)Bra ~07 things that annoy you: 1) Period 2)Headaches 3)People that nag 4) The Beach 5) Hockey 6) Baseball 7) Really Tight Pants ~06 things you say most everyday: 1) Really? 2) yes 3) no 4) Seriously? 5) the 6) and ~05 things you do everyday: 1) eat 2) drink 3) sleep 4) homework 5) talk ~04 people you want to spend more time with: 1) Matt 2) Vernon 3) Allen (If he was still here) R.I.P. 4) Cousins ~03 of your favorite songs at the moment: 1)Stand-up- Ludacris 2) Gangsta Nation- WSC 3) Pornstar- 50 Cent ~02 movies you could watch over and over again: 1) Fight Club 2) Alice in Wonderland ~01 person you would spend the rest of your life with: ___________________. (Fill in the blank) Current Mood: amusedCurrent Music: *Pornstar*- 50 Cent |
| 11:17 am |
[When we don't know who to hate, we hate ourselves.] It's the truth. Without access to true chaos, we'll never have true peace. Hating ourselves isn't really bad thing, it's just another form of our own denial. It's kind of like religion in a way, when people have noone else to go to, when they're so terrified by their own guilt all they have is the God they know about, the church they know is on 3rd and Wilton. It's our own form of denial and uncertainty. The way we express a feeling we can't blame on anybody else but ourselves. The feeling that we don't want to feel, that we keep pushing away, but just keeps coming back to haunt us. This is masterbation. This probably what some people would say the freedom of our salvation. The freedom that will condemn us. The lothe that will hate us. The rotting of our ownselves right in front of our eyes. This is wealth. This is disaster. This is what we know. This is our shit. Our lives. Our freedom. And this, this is who we really are. This weekend pretty much, Rocked and S0cked. On Thursday as you know I went to the N.E.R.D. thing. It was gret as well as you will see in the last two entries. And Friday I went out with my cousin to USC. The big Frat party. very cool indeed. We ended up sleeping over, and stuck their until my dear cousin sobered up with her b/f and drove back at like 12:15 or so back to my place where they dropped me off and headed to their house they were. We couldn't go anywhere last night cause my parents came home extra late on purpose because they said I've been going out to much. I asked her earlier about Vernon's B-day Go Kart thing but it sucks, cause she just gave me that stupid excuse of babysittin' my cousin and my lil' sis. So last night sucked, it's actually the first saturday that really sucked ass in a while. All I did was sit on my ass and take care of the little kids while they were having the time of their lives playing handball and tag and the usual 5th grader life thing where they thing on the top of the world and nothing can stop them from growing up, where school doesn't suck and where everything they do is a actually a good thing. Well, guess what reality check girls and guys, your life will soon be fucking up as you think, it will creep down your shoulders and tell you that your fucking up. And then, there I will be, not soberized, but blown away. I will laugh. Stare. Point. And Glare. Because noone stopped it for me. Because I know it's the only way you will learn why noone ever really likes school after elemenatary. It's in our genes, it's in your blood. It runs through your vains every moment you breathe, eat and sleep. You will be whatever you never want to become. Because this is who your are. And this is what the world wants you to be, and whats you to know. That you aren't the failure they want, but you are the failure you saw. Today, Sunday, ahh yes, I'm probably going to the valley with my mom before she goes to work so I can go swimming at my cousins house and chill with them for a while maybe til'10 pm. tonight so that I can watch the B-ball game tonight with the Los Angeles Lakers. W00t! W00t! They're Number 1 on my book. Kobe Bryant is really HOT. Rapist or Therapist, same difference, he's a guy and he also gets horny, there's not other way to say it That's the way love or attraction goes right?! hehe. Well yeah, I'm gonna bring my cell with me so feel free to hit me up just to chat or do whatever, that's if your near by (Diamond Bar). It's near west covina and ontario mills mall. Hit me up: 3.2.3.4.9.6.1.4.8.3.- MiSs PuRe-PiNk- WiTh PiMp.jUiCE.I Don't want to know if your playin' me, keep it on the low, cause my heart can't take it anymore....
L0uVr3',
*-k-de-* Current Mood:  accomplishedCurrent Music: 0utkast-I can't wait--- |
| Friday, March 26th, 2004 | | 10:51 pm |
[The laws that keep us safe, these same laws condemn us to boredum.] Name = K-de Piercings = 2 (1 on each ear) tattoos = =None, but I will get a tiny pink heart. height=5-5-ish. shoe size = 6.5-7.0 hair color = Black eye color =Almond Brown siblings =1 small sis, and a Half bro LAST... movie you saw in theaters = Secret Window movie you saw at home = The fast and the furious song stuck in your head = "Watch out! my outfits ridiculous, in the club looking so conspicuous!" cd you bought = Chingy cd you listened to = N.E.R.D. "FLY OR DIE" person you've called = Vernon person that's called you = Johnny tv show you've watched = Grounded for life person you were thinking of = Matt DO... you have a crush on someone =Yep. you wish you could live somewhere else = Malibu, or near the beach you think about suicide = No, never,enjoy life. you believe in online dating = EH? others find you attractive = Eh... it's their choice. you like cleaning =No. too lazy. you like roller coasters =Yea! you write in cursive or print= B0th FOR OR AGAINST... long distance relationships = Depends. using someone=Never. suicide =Never. killing people = No. teenage smoking = Never cigars, or cigarettes. driving drunk = Don't be DrUnK oN CrUnk and DoN't DUI. gay/lesbian relationships = Never. Gays are good friends, never lovers. soap operas = Hate-em' HAVE YOU... ever cried over a guy= Colin Gibson "8th grade" and Matt Rochelle "2004" ever lied to someone = Yeah ever been in a fist fight = Yep ever been arrested = Yep WHAT... shampoo do you use = Herbal Essence shoes do you wear = Slippers,or Thongs, or Chucka's! are you scared of= Being hurt. NUMBER... of times I have been in love?= Once of times I have had my heart broken? = Once of hearts I have broken? = Wouldn't know. of girls I have kissed? = None of boys I have kissed? No Comment. of girls I've slept with? = Never. of boys I've slept with? =Hmm...Not yet. of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? =Matthew Rochelle and Vernon Williams of times my name has appeared in the newspaper= Everytime the school newspaper comes out. (Journalism: Advertising Business Manager!!) of scars on my body? =Lots on my legs, skating... of things in my past that I regret? = Never liking matt back last year and never giving him a chance. DO YOU THINK YOU ARE... Pretty- Nah, just regular funny –Hoping. friendly –I try amusing - If you say so ugly – If you say so loveable –I try caring – If your worth caring for sweet – sure why not a tool – at times. FAVORITE... 4 letter word: Pink actor/actress: Johnny Depp/Brad Pitt/Edward Norton Candy:Twix it's all in the mix Cartoon:Simpsons Cereal: Count Chocula Chewing gum: Orbit Color(s): Pink Day of week: Friday Least fave day: Wednesday Flower: Tulip Jewelry: Fancy Special skills/talents:Skate, Modeling, and Design Summer/Winter: Summer (Fun in the sun) Trampolines or swimming pools: Trampoline! Matt has one! PERSON WHO LAST... Slept in your bed: Matt Saw you cry: Kyla (Sis) Made you cry: Dad You went to the movies with: April Yelled at you: Dad Sent you an email: Allen's parents HAVE YOU EVER... Gone out in public in your pajamas: Yea to school Kept a secret from everyone: Yea Cried during a movie: Titanic Ever owned new kids on the block stuff:Bedsheets Planned your week based on the TV Guide: Nah Been on stage: Yes Been to New York: Yes Been to California:I live here. Hawaii: Yes China: No Canada: Yes Europe: Yes, Paris! Asia:Philippines South America: Yea Australia: No Wished you were the opposite sex: Yes, no labor, no period, no pregnancy,no worries. What time is it now?: 10:45 p.m Apples or bananas?: Apples Blue or red?: Red Walmart or target?: Wal-mart Spring or Fall?: Falll What are you gonna do after you finish this?: Drink Water What was the last meal you ate?:Bagel Bites High school or college?:None. Out. Are you bored?:Yes Last noise you heard?:Television Set in room Last smell you sniffed?:Strawberries and Creme Last time you went out of state/province?: Last Summer OTHER INFO... Criminal record?No, just truancy Do you speak any other languages?:Tagalog (Filipino) Last book you read:Survivor (Chuck Palahnuik) Name some of your favorite things in your room?Skateboard,CD's,Clothes,Purses, and Lava Lamp. Who you love: No Comment. (MaTt) Who you miss: Allen (R.I.P.) YOU... Nickname(s):Pink,K-de-isha,Asian Lover,Pink Pornstar,PiNKaY, K-dee-dee, Kay Initials: K.D. Glasses/Contacts: None Braces: Nope. Perfect0! Do you have any pets?: Puppy. What makes you happy?:Food. Music. Clothes. Shopping. P.I.M.P.E.T.T.E. What upsets you?: People that think they know who you are when they only say they do because they want to fuck up your life cause their life is already as fucked up as it can be. Current Mood: boredCurrent Music: $Chingy$- Right Thurr! |
| 3:56 pm |
[If Your goal is to hurt my feelings you could give lessons.] It's true everytime I write in this somehting has happened. As Carlos said it's either me smoking out someplace with my pothead cousin. Or it's either my ex-boyfriend and I getting back together and breaking-up for the stupidest reasons. This entry is Public. So read all you want, about my life, my status and everything else you little fuckers think you know about me. Not saying any names, but this black skinny blonde-haired fucker who wears tight jeans and also has the name of one of my good friends from middle school, I really think he deserves a beating not from me, but from everyone else he's ever fucked with. But maybe it's just me. Maybe I'm just too stupid to give a fuck of whatever that pathetic fucker does. Although, as the person I'am I really don't care, but sometimes there's always that point where it'll just get to you cause it's nagged you too much, and you start believing and actually getting angry even if you know that it's not even worht talking about. Yet on the other hand, if he does loathe me, or should I say hate me, then go on with it. I mean I would rather be hated than people to feel sorry for me.It's just really pathetic for someone to fuck with someone else's life just because their life is fucked over already. I mean I could call it "revenge" or I could call it "jealousy". The two words are related to some strange or odd circumstances. My real question to you, Why all this? Is this your sense of humor? Is this your point of you being a good person? really, WHY? I'd like to end this part of my entry, because If I speak anymore about this topic, it will lead to every single disaster I've ever thought about in my mind. Maybe sometimes I do hold back on my knowledge or atleast the knowledge I'm capable of. On the other hand, I went to the N.E.R.D. (No one Ever Really Dies.) show @ the Wiltern, They played with Black Eyed Peas (<--- Sucked.) It was awesome. I loved it. I like the seats the tix were at an OK price $29.50 sold out, luckily my friend charlie hooked us up. It was awesome cause BEP played at first with their "Where is the love?" Song and people didn't really like to listen to them live because they really did need some practice, but then again, when N.E.R.D. came out with "She wants to move" and "Frontin" it was more awesome than ever. And of course played more of their songs from their new album "Fly Or Die". It was great The picture that Moo-Moo gave me at school of Pharrell Williams is now an autographed photo, w00t! w00t! Yeah, It was great meeting him, especially backstage with Chad, it was really great but yet an experience like that I really regret. Why? because I could've done better and just chilled, but I was just all shcoked out, cause I mean I really do crush on that guy. Hehe. but hey meeting him was enough and having his e-mail is enough maybe even his digits, but let's keep that on the D-L. Overall, it was fun. Thanks Charlie, Thanks Ape, Sorry Angie, Sorry Kiana, Sorry Ashely. I got home at like 11, and that was a bitch because I had to deal with my taken over by the nazi father, it wasn't really that great. Yeah, I got botched on again, over the printer and how it wouldn't print out pictures for my most darling and annoying little fuck of a sister. Haha, I didn't care so what? he took me cell-phone for exactly 25 mins and gave it back and apologized realizing that their is the stupidity in taking my shit form me over some lousy printer.Yes it's true sometimes parents are wrong in so many wrong matters. Drama at school, Drama within', And Drama at home, where else? Can I give drama a destination and will it go with me forever? isn't great? The cursed me! ahah. Over exaggeration sometimes helps me realize that some things you have to be sarcastic about for it to stop annoying the fuck outta ya. Matt, called me up at like 6:30 am. He told me that he wasn't attending school cause he was lazy, he wanted me to swing over if I was going to school but I didn't, I was lazy, tired and super- sick from not wearing any clothes @t last night's show. No jacket in a 45 degree weather results in a cold/feverish feeling. So I told him that I might come over, until I took my temp and my mom said that school wasn't gonna be for me once again. So I called him up again at like 8:30 am. And I think I woke him up, but hey I told him that I'm sick and I can't do shit. I fell back asleep and ate, and watched TV. two hours later. It wasn't fun, but sometimes people eat to let things go. I still really do have str0ng feelings for matt, but I don't know if I should continue any longer, I mean we aren't going out, and we aren't really dating. We do sm00ch at times but that's just out of boredum and curiousity for eachothers feelings and maybe too see if we still really do have certain feelings for eachother. Many say go on. Many say stay on. And most of me say *Confusion*. But then again, maybe it's just me. It's all good. Everything is as normal as it's never ever been. And once more "The you love and the one that loves you are never the same person." I know you goal isn't to hurt my feelings, but you could give lessons and get rich off of it. Your really good at confusing. If that's what your really up to. but then again, maybe it is just me. If so, what's wrong with me? Am I just someone who can't understand?! But Whatever. I guess it's just me. Today I'm going to my cousin's house, and were having a little get together, proabably going to aprty after swimming and shit like that. So it's all good. There is this USC Frat-Party tonight and were probably gonna go with James and pribably meet-up with people that go to fax over there, btu I know it's gonna pretty tight and I'm probably gonna be pretty bLown. and DrUnK oN CrUnk lol. Yeah, party-up tonight. I hope everything goes all well, fun fun funZO. That's about it for today. Tomorrow I have to ask my mom if I can join her tomorrow, so that I can shop with becca @t beverly center, and ask her if I can go with Big V- (BiK) to celebrate his birthday, which is orginally on monday. OK, That's it. I'm out and about. Peace out. Happy B-day Big V(Aka. BiK- Vernon Williams)! Love ya Xo xO! hehe. Alright hit me to chat or to plan out and chill sometime.L0UvR3',
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| Saturday, March 13th, 2004 | | 10:15 am |
[See Also:That sense of doubt that runs through are vains] The first word that comes to mind is "fucked-up". Have you ever wondered why highschool relationships don't last not because of the two that are invloved but because of the world and people that wish to be invloved for their own benefits and laughter that only themselves feel is humorous. I was just thinking about thursday's happenings and it made me realize how fucked-up people really are when jealousy and revenge run through their minds. It's really pathetic on what somoene will do to get what they want. Wow, I can't believe stories and lies that runs through someones mind can make someone believe everything that they say, it really is dispicable. On the other hand, my advice is never to trust someone with everything, but if you wish to set a limit or a boundary because if you get too close, it's like you'll never let go, but there is always that point of regret which you'll have to face when you realize it, you've already lost the person you wished to be closer too, but that's a lesson, to set boundaries in trust. Maybe that's why people get married? because of trust it's not the physical attraction and sex, it's not only the knowledge, but it may just be the sense of trust and it's limits.I just feel that for me to be able to trust someone I have to be able to trust myself and if I cannot do that myself, then why even try with another person. I think at first I have to realize what trust I hold in myself and my best of friends, what my true boundaries are and what limits I hold in the things I owuld like them to know and what I do not wish for them to know for my own good and as well as theirs. So far, being 16 has made me realize a lot of shit I haven't even bothered to realize, maturity is as obvious as it will go, but as well as changes and how the views of others can affect how someone see's their life and how they base their life on people that stereotype them. This entry is one that I will probably look back into not only for my own self-advice but maybe because it will come to use when I lose everything I've ever held to as a valuable.As if maybe someday when I go back into time I will realize everythin I ever held onto and maybe even understand why the choice I made was that choice. We all make choices, and for a reason, we say we don't know it, but we already do, we just have to realize it someday when it comes to mind and describe it as the adjective that the frist word that comes to mind is what it really is. As well as today might go, my aunt's are coming from covina, were going to go shopping, and luckily my mom forgot about the whole dilemma about my cellphone bill, crazy as it sound my bill was like $338.89 pretty crazy eh? Yeah, well I might go out to lunch with my aunts and shop with my mom, we might go to that Santa Monica and Van Ness store to get those chinese slippers and ballerina shoes. I called up Briggette if she wanted to come, still no answer. Yeah, she's probably gettin' stoned or something. Last time I apoke to Matt was last night, until my sister had her little girly fit and I had my cellphone taken away from me, cause my dad walked in and he said I should be using the phone even if it is the weekend and even if it is free miniutes and offpeak. But I don't care because I had spent the day with Matt anyway, it was fun we watched a movie and we played around with the comp. and my sisters little comics and stuffage. "I like BBQ chicken and stuff" (Inside joke.) Well that's bout' it, I'll try to update if I can later tonight, but if not, wait until tomorrow. Thanks very much0... Current Mood:  blankCurrent Music: R. Kelly/ Nick Cannon- Jiggalo |
| Friday, March 12th, 2004 | | 1:22 pm |
[See Also:I'd like to love you like you love me] Wow! This week has been the biggest almost most awesome bLuR ever! Seriously!? everything that has happened this week has never happened before, but I guess there is a first for everything. I'm gonna start off about yesterday at school, that was pure bullshit. OK so tyrie my ex-boyfriend has this little thing with my current boyfriend matt, well deshaun tyrie's, bor talked shit about my boyfriend matt, well matt isn't going to take that just like that because these kids are fuckin' idiots. Seriously, I don't even know why I dated tyrie what a bastard I mean seriously?! why can't he just leave me the fuck alone?! seriously?!?! Anyways so yeah, fight thee and fight here there was a little tension at lunch of thos faggots. Anyway matt was pissed and so was I cause I mean seriously why can't these people just leave us the fuck alone? You know? Yeah My fight started off cause going to third period my friend Jasmine told he about that girl that wanted to catch a fade with me and jasmine, because she was talking shit bout me and she didn't even know me? WTF? seriously? and she was backstabbin' jasmine so that's really shady. So 6th period, jasmine and I blazed in the girl's bathroom,we got out and we fuckin' searched for that bitch around campus, we found her with her little group of friends, and she was all "do something" and she socked me in the stomach. And so I socked her in the face, and jasmine kicked the shit out of her and we ended up on the 1st floor to the cafeteria, Mr. Taylor and Ms. Cox came downstairs and stopped us, she had us sit in the dean's office and taken downtown tot he LAUSD distric office and called both our parents.It was so much bullshit. Seriously, but we got away with it cause the stupid girl started that shit... That was my fight. When I walked home with Harvey he my cousin and I smoked a lil' blunt to get over whatever the fucked I was so pissed about. To top that on, Matt called me up and broke-up with me because too much boys were on his ass. I mean I don't undertsand do they not understand that I go out with matt and he's the one I chose to be with noone else. None. It's too much. I had to agree but it was sad I cried and I really wasn't acting myself cause I was high, and I was sad and depressed or angry as fuck. So I called Vernon and I fuckin' cried over the phone for atleats the second time for matt, I mean I dunno, I've never ever cried for anyone in my life that I went out with like Colin gibson I think is the last guy I had ever cried for. Until now, because I dunno I guess I really care about matt. Yeah, maybe. And same goes for him he says that it just feels so empty without me or without him, I feel as if somethings missing. He called me later that night and asked me out again! hehe... what did I say? well what else but of course, I mean seriously?! You know... that would be stupid if I were like "NO", so I'm once again Happy , real happy indeed...And that was that.... Today Matt and I both skipped school, and he said he was coming over, but I highly doubt it cause he hasn't called yet about it, cause I think his mother won't let him. I'll update tonight. L0UvR3',
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| Thursday, March 4th, 2004 | | 11:04 pm |
[You scream. I scream. We all scream. Sex machine.] "And wait til' I love you like I love you..." Hello! Goodbye! I'm late I'm late I'm late! hey everyone haven't written here for awhile, but hey here I'am sleepy as fuck, but also feeling loved by the one and truly BoY tOy MaTt <--- him, I love him. Yeah, he's craazy 8 but CoO. well anyway yeah... We've known eachother for more than 2 years of our lives and things have changed ever since the both us came closer and closer, as friends, then best friends and now boyfriend and girlfriend material. As crazy as this will sound but it is what it came to be. Last year in nutshell was all about "friends" and no love, but I dunno I made a big mistake last year of listening to others when it was only for the benefit of themselves. I mean I don't quite understand the point. But anyway, it's basically trust and depends on who you listen to. Matt liked me last year and I never ever said a thing even when I did sorta like him back. It sucked like hell, because he liked me for who I was and what I'am. It's great, but I didn't realize that til'I was gone and I lived in Fresno, it sucked. Well good timez with my cousin apryl but that was all their was drOoGS. When I came back this second sem. into the 10th grade, I saw matt and I said "hi" we got along just fine, but I didn't realize how hard it was to get over someone you had really loved and forget about them as soon as you could. Well we talked and we chilled during our PE. period. and stuff like that but that was all he treated me like a regular person, Until, he found out that I felt more for him than he did for me today. He wanted revenge, and I couldn't blame him. But his friend now both our best friend Vernon helped himout and blahdiblah, and this is how todya we are together and possibly I want it to be forever.... We had got in a lil' glitch lats night for about 1 hr or so when he broke up with me for the dumbest reason and that was b/c kids that liked me annoyed him and said to him that if he ever hurt me then he would get hurt, I mean I owuld be annoyed too, but I definelty would not break up with my g/f for that. It's stupid because I chose him and that's just too fuckin' bad for everyone else. Am I right???? Yes.... And he called more than 6 times on my phone and told me that he could not lose me and that he cared more than anything else. My reaction was I finally cried for another guy, I haven't cried since the end of 8th gr. over colin gibson and I never ever cried for Kris, Richard, or even Tyrie as weird as this may seem, but I feel that matthew I really care about. So today we SmOoChEd all day... yep it was FuN fUn FuNzO.!!!! whheeeee!!!! IT WAS great I was happy and flappy.hehehehehhehehehehehehehe. Yeah, Tomorrow night I'm going out with either matt and brian and vernon or vernon diana and matt. Or Briggette and Mitra SooOo that we could sMOkE-OuT or BoX my cuz's CaR... aite, I'm OUt! .:.:.:.:*PeAcE oUt*:.:.:.:.L0UvR3',
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| Wednesday, February 25th, 2004 | | 8:36 pm |
[Rain dr0ps keep fallin' 0n my Head.] Helloooo. It's a very grey day, wow! I went back to school today and gave mr. taylor the "sick" note for my PRC clearance form. HA! they spelled my name wrong again, and I was scared it was gonna show up on the transcript so then I just went back to the attendance office and demanded my name to be spelt right, and believe it or not they wanted fuckin' proof that it was me and if that was my name. How awkwardly strict? I mean seriously didn't I come in their in the mornin'? KA-DERH!!!! Anywho, I went into Ms. Myers' office and ask her for my cum files so that I can give one to Mr. Taylor as PrOoF that my name was really my name. <--- did that sentence make any sense?! meh, After that break came up and I saw Ray, James and Chris walkin' by and I asked them hey "where matt at?" and they were like "he didn't come to skoO today!" and I was sad :( but it was weird cause I hung out with his friends. It was kinda cOo though cause Chris and I were talkin' and Ray just came and made me laugh he's sucha funny guy. After that I went to third period with my h0mie Chris and his other buddy and Harvey and Manuel we hung out and kicked it at the b-ball courts watchin' NbA aLL-sTaR fUtUrE "PhiLLiP" from JB. I miss that guy, he changed but he is hella pr0... yeah, we talked and blah. I walked into to 4th period and noone was there so I walked back out and then I saw Jas0n so I gave him the wassup and talked a lil' about last year and shit like that. 4th period was pretty b0ring except at the end b/c we were talking about annoying lil' kids and crying and them telling on us and shit like that. Mr. O' hare is a really funny man. Pr0pS! hMmMmmM... oh YeA lUnch was OK. since matt didn't come I was still s0rta down but I talked to him over the phoneand he talked to rAy and chris s0 that they say "sup" it was CoO, I had 2 go tho b/c a teacher had seen me usin' it and she gave me that "look" so I stopped and just kicked it with Chris and Ray----. 5th and 6th PeRiOd PiSsEd ME OFF... the student teacher mr.g. is a big PUnK he always loses my papers and shit like that he is a PriCk... DamN... Yeah and 6th was just me eating cup of N00dles and discussing Movies of the year that were good and bad, convo's usually in that class. Pretty G00d I guess... blahdiblah... Well that's all cause I got a lot of Homework and all that other shit to do... give me a call: 323-496-1483. ( .:~Know Me~:.... ) Current Mood: satisfiedCurrent Music: .: PhArReLL:. |
| Tuesday, February 24th, 2004 | | 8:38 am |
[See Also: Absence makes a difference?] Hey, I ditched school today?! Har har. So did matt, it's cool, what time is it? Yeah, when my mother leaves I'm gonna tell him to drop by and chill withme til' like 4 or something so that BLAH! I dunno, I can't like come over his house because if someone calls me then I wouldn't be able to answer... and my mom checks up on the house. So it's complicated as fuck. Thank god for no escuela. Fuck school, but hey I was talking to these girls outside the girls bathroom, it was pretty weird cause she was fussin about she wasted her life during the years of her highschool, it sucked ass because she didn't spend her time... blahdidblah.... In... weirdness...
And... Death...
Anywho, give me a chitter-chatter; ok 3.2.3.4.9.6.1.4.8.3.
L0UvR3',
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| Sunday, February 22nd, 2004 | | 11:17 am |
I'm only one call away... Hello everyone. W00t W00t! As Vernon would say I would probably be doing jumpin' jacks butt naked. Aahaha. well anywhoo let me tell you about friday first then we'll get to the greatness of the journal entry. So friday afternoon afterschool, I look across the street and I see Vernon. The "BIK" lol. Cool, cause I haven't seen him in like the longest of longest time. Then Matt comes a long to say sup and we cross the street again. So he can say sup to the homies. We saw diana and gave a sup? and shit like that. So we (Vernon,Matt and I) took the 217 down to 3rd St. and took the 16 down to Cedars Sinai cause me mama was being a sorta nazi about the whole "Mom I'm going out w/ my friends across the street" So I had to swing by her workplace and tell her that I was there so that she can see my goddamn face. But whateva, so matt and vernon came with me to see my mom, they met my mom and she said they were cool.
We headed off to Beverly Center; and first off we ate, pizza hehe. I did, and vernon was eating but really wasn't cause he was makin' up names and shit. Then I saw Kiana from World Hist. Class, she looked like she had a good time with her friends and shit so I was like "hey!" After we ate at the food court Vernon started doing some stupid shit. LOL. it was funny, we walked around and we went to Jamba Juice and Matt bought like a "peach" drink or whatever. It was GOOD. we drank some and shit like that. Then we went inside thta HOMEDICS store where they have comfort sofas for your pleasure and etc. It was great, Vernon sat in one the finest ones and we stayed there for like the looooooongest time. I had a few pleasures myself. hehehe. :) So, we went to starbucks and Tae wasn't workin' so I couldn't get a free drink from him. And it sucked.... because my mom used all of her card up. But it was OK. it was her coffee that was importante.
We went to the hospital and we chilled there for awhile until Vernon was like "Uh, we have to go because I don't wanna be out til' like nine and waiting to catch a bus ride home..." So I went downstairs to take em' down. We stood outside for like the longest time too... LOL. But it was awesome Vernon was like"ok bye" then he hugged me. then I said "bye matt" and he hugged me, we kept doing the same thing over and over again. Vernon squeezed my lips and kissed me, and I was like"AHHH" wtf? lol, but he said he was jokin' or whatevr. Then,Matt looked at me and we hugged for like the longest time and we SmOoChED A LIL' bit while I was on my tinsy tippy toes. it was cute, but we kept doin' it so vernon got all pissy wissy cause he kept saying ok let's go and we didn't move. LOL, so he left and then I told matt hey you better go, he's oging to leave yo ass. LOL. so that was great The friday was awesome.
Saturday was AWESOME. I stayed home, but I was on the phone with Matt and Vernon, hearing there new skits. LOL. I styaed home slept, and ate a lotta food, cleaned the rooms for money next week cause were going out and shit like that. Then I talked on the phone for about 5 hrs. and matt asked me out on the phone... so nOw I have A BoY tOy hehe, <333 I heart U matt. LOL. and I watched mad T.v. and all that other stuffs. Today, Sunday my dear mother is either going to get her hair done at a slon and I might get my hair colored Blackberry or w/e. Or she might be going to downtown LA. to get something and i might go b/c I really want those lil' slipper things and stuffs, it looks good. and nice because my aunt from fresno hasn't come back to give me my stuff yet, all my shoes are in there and my other clothes and other stuff... that's all for today. Give me a hit if you want I'm only one call away: 3.2.3.4.9.6.1.4.8.3.
I like the way you move...
L0UvR3',
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| Thursday, February 19th, 2004 | | 2:53 pm |
[See Also: Damn Right it's Bettah' Than Yours!!!] Hello. I'm at school right now, doing nothing in 6th period. Kinda crazy and interesting at the same time. I'm currently doing nothing. lol. Well to tell you about my weekend it was sorta weird. I thought I was going to go out with my friends but actually I didn't my mom became the biggest nazi in the world had her little pms fit. Damn, it sucked so much because I had already told vernon and matt that I was able to go out but NOO, the mom had to stop the whole thing.
Anywho, Tomorrow is going to be great!? I hope so because Vernon and Matt and I are going tot he B.C. Max; might go but he is very very unsure. Yeah, that is great. W00t W00t! What else? Oh yea, Tae asked me on a date this friday, and UNFORTUNATELY, I'm going somewhere with the kids. I mean I'd take him but yeah, he's sooooo my crUsH. LOL "CrUsHiN' oN A SeNiOr" lol meh. it's all goood. I hope.
Hmmm... Nothing else is going on this weekend. Everything is just whatevers....
Okay, Call the cell if you'd like to talk. Oh and "hi" to all the Clovis Kids.
Ps. I'm not sure if cousin' Apryl is coming this weekend. <333
L0UvR3',
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